Sweetville, Ohio

Oh, how I always grow to love the middle man.

Tell me your pretty lies:

"I'm 'effin tired, let's get inspired, all that I'm sure of is, I long to be desired. If I seem confused, it's that I'm being taunted, by everything I ever thought I really wanted. If I'm being nice, if I tell you lies, seems I'm still equally admired and despised. I'm insecure, sure, I can't commit. It's not my finest trait, I'm not too proud of it."

Stale air will bring a stale me:

Im leaving, Im gone. Gotta go get my move on, I've been hanging here for days. Accept my resignation, give me my cheque. Please understand this will be the last peck, on your, your lips. I checked the weather forecast, not a cloud in the sky. My bags are all packed now and you wonder why, were a roller coaster, you're a roller coaster I swear.

And we cant afford the rent, this loves all but spent. I can barely sleep the night, dreaming about brand new spaces and brand new faces, yeah. Dreaming about brand new spaces and brand new faces, yeah.

Small mercies:

"So I want to get myself attached to something bolted down, so that these winds of circumstance won't keep blowing me around. From when I land to when I leave, there is enough time to sleep and sing. I keep running around, when all I want is to lay motionless."

One I adore:

Dissapointment is weighing me down.

I was riding shotgun in imaginary cars.

I am not a happy person.

I am sad.

I am lonely.

I am selfish.

I am sensitive.

I am regretful.

And.

I have absolutely no reason to be.

I don't shine if you don't shine.

There are stars in the night sky that look brighter than the others, and when you look at them through a telescope you realize you are looking at twins. The two stars rotate around each other, taking nearly a hundred years to do it. You might see a blue star, and realize only later that it has a white dwarf as a companion-that first one shines so bright, by the time you notice the second one, it's really too late.

Hey, you:

Please don't talk to me, I thought I'd be your girlfriend.
Please don't talk to me, you have a girlfriend.
Please don't talk to me, you are married.
Please don't talk to me, I'm too shy to make eye contact.

Through the view that comes with you, like they handed me my life for the first time it felt right. Thank you for making me see there's a life in me, it was dying to get out. Holding you we make two spoons beneath an april moon. Everything is soft and sweet. This cigarette it could seduce a nation with its smoke, crawling down my tired throat, scratches part of me that's purring. Softly stirring. Feet up on the windowsill, looking at all these trees I feel affinity with. Everything so soft and still-budding at my fingertips. Touching you I start to bloom. Alive with trains and passing and sweet upon your lips now.

I do not know what I want.

"And when I see you, I really see you upside down. But my
brain knows better, it picks you up and turns you around."

You wept but your soul was willing.

There's a swallow, there's a calm, here's a hand to
lay on your open palm today. As on we go drowning,
down we go away and darling, we go a-drowning.
Down we go away, away.

Think it's overrated?

I know that I can be erratic when it comes to my feelings. I realize I throw the word love around. I know. I do not need you to tell me so, I do not need you to act as if you know me better than I know myself.

Why does it matter to you? Why do you even care about the terms I use to describe my feelings? You have never felt it either, so I truly do not think you have any right to contradict me.

I'm sorry that I'm happy when you are not. I'm sorry that I make you feel left out. I'm sorry that you don't like my humour. I'm sorry that you don't like to be there for me. But, what kind of friend acts that way?

I know that I need a shoulder often. I know. But, that is just who I am.

Across the sky:

I don't even know you, I've spoken to you once. Yet, you have this power over my entire mind.

You have been the only thing I can think of. The centre of all my thoughts. And, I wish it would stop. I don't need this right now, I don't ever need this.

I'm not going to let myself get my hopes up anymore. It only leaves space for unnecessary dissapointment.

Bad day, looking for a way, home, looking for the great escape. Gets in his car and drives away, far from all the things that we are. Puts on a smile and breathes it in and breathes it out, he says, bye, bye, bye to all of the noise. Oh, he says, bye, bye, bye to all of the noise.

Hey child, things are looking down. That’s okay, you don’t need to win anyways. Don’t be afraid, just eat up all the gray and it will fade all away. Don’t let yourself fall down.

You're not a day too soon:

Let them pay for tomorrow, their time is borrowed, give me today, and give it all, come alive on me, come arrive on me, undepart from me, steal my heart from me, love me like you can, love me like you can, love me like you can. I want you to love me like you did when we started it, love me like you can. I'm gonna let you in, I'm gonna love again, love me like I know you can.

I trust that you write them too.

"Your relationships are the heaviest components in your life. All
those negotiations and arguments and secrets, the compromises."

Never leave your heart alone.

I don't know what it ever was about you, and I don't know how I forgave you so many times. I put aside so many of my values, so many people I love for you. And it was all for nothing. I deserve so much more than you, I'm no longer ashamed nor afraid to say so. You changed me, for the better but nothing lasts forever, not friendship or 'love'. I've put myself through far too much. I'm done with you and all the baggage you come with.

“Sometimes you cannot believe what you see; you have to believe what you feel. And if you are ever going to have other people trust you, you must feel that you can trust them, too-even when you’re in the dark. Even when you’re falling.”

In the water, I am beautiful

I'm content to
walk a little
slower, because
there's nowhere
I really need
to be.

Plans for the future:

re⋅flect –verb (used with object) : 1. to
give back or show an image of; mirror.

re⋅gret –verb (used with object) : 1. to
feel sorrow or remorse for (an act, fault,
disappointment, etc.)

change –verb (used with object) : 1. to
make the form, nature, content, future
course, etc., of (something) different from
what it is or from what it would be if left
alone

Contrast and compare between the busy ones and the ones that just don't care, until there is no one that you really know. So I drift through these days of appointments and promises made, they will all end up broken and quickly replaced.

you've got your passion, you've got your pride

You may think I'm young, naive. Although, I'm near postive
I've learned much more through mistakes made than you have
through successes to show for.

Trying to rid you from my bones:

'And if you don't love me let me go,
and if you don't love me let me go,
and if you don't love me let me go,
and if you don't love me let me go,
and if you don't love me let me go.'