I do not know what I want.

"And when I see you, I really see you upside down. But my
brain knows better, it picks you up and turns you around."

You wept but your soul was willing.

There's a swallow, there's a calm, here's a hand to
lay on your open palm today. As on we go drowning,
down we go away and darling, we go a-drowning.
Down we go away, away.

Think it's overrated?

I know that I can be erratic when it comes to my feelings. I realize I throw the word love around. I know. I do not need you to tell me so, I do not need you to act as if you know me better than I know myself.

Why does it matter to you? Why do you even care about the terms I use to describe my feelings? You have never felt it either, so I truly do not think you have any right to contradict me.

I'm sorry that I'm happy when you are not. I'm sorry that I make you feel left out. I'm sorry that you don't like my humour. I'm sorry that you don't like to be there for me. But, what kind of friend acts that way?

I know that I need a shoulder often. I know. But, that is just who I am.

Across the sky:

I don't even know you, I've spoken to you once. Yet, you have this power over my entire mind.

You have been the only thing I can think of. The centre of all my thoughts. And, I wish it would stop. I don't need this right now, I don't ever need this.

I'm not going to let myself get my hopes up anymore. It only leaves space for unnecessary dissapointment.

Bad day, looking for a way, home, looking for the great escape. Gets in his car and drives away, far from all the things that we are. Puts on a smile and breathes it in and breathes it out, he says, bye, bye, bye to all of the noise. Oh, he says, bye, bye, bye to all of the noise.

Hey child, things are looking down. That’s okay, you don’t need to win anyways. Don’t be afraid, just eat up all the gray and it will fade all away. Don’t let yourself fall down.

You're not a day too soon:

Let them pay for tomorrow, their time is borrowed, give me today, and give it all, come alive on me, come arrive on me, undepart from me, steal my heart from me, love me like you can, love me like you can, love me like you can. I want you to love me like you did when we started it, love me like you can. I'm gonna let you in, I'm gonna love again, love me like I know you can.

I trust that you write them too.

"Your relationships are the heaviest components in your life. All
those negotiations and arguments and secrets, the compromises."

Never leave your heart alone.

I don't know what it ever was about you, and I don't know how I forgave you so many times. I put aside so many of my values, so many people I love for you. And it was all for nothing. I deserve so much more than you, I'm no longer ashamed nor afraid to say so. You changed me, for the better but nothing lasts forever, not friendship or 'love'. I've put myself through far too much. I'm done with you and all the baggage you come with.

“Sometimes you cannot believe what you see; you have to believe what you feel. And if you are ever going to have other people trust you, you must feel that you can trust them, too-even when you’re in the dark. Even when you’re falling.”

In the water, I am beautiful